Disappointing...

One of the most disappointing things in my weight-loss venture thus far stems from this: I've not yet lost all the weight I've gained since graduated college and I'm certainly bigger than I was in high school.

I've pretty intentionally isolated myself, especially over the past few months, mostly out of shame.  I was embarrassed at how I looked, I didn't feel good about myself, and I hated where I was in life.  I withdrew into myself, and really only saw a select few people, and interacted with as few as I could at work.


Now, I'm losing weight and starting to feel better, so I'm not as embarrassed about going in public as much.  What's disappointing though, is that when I see people that I knew in college or in high school, they don't know that over the past few month's I've taken steps to live a healthier life, and those steps are starting to (ever so slightly) show themselves.  They just see me and think to themselves "wow, she's really let herself go even more so than when I knew her..."

Now, they don't say this out loud, and I guess I can't really prove in any way that they are even thinking that way, but the fear is still there, that they are thinking it silently.