Saturday, June 30, 2012

I'm a Big girl

My story is still being written.

I'm still a big girl.  I say that with the qualification that I don't think of myself as a 'fat girl'. 

I used to think of myself as a fat girl, but no more, because a fat girl thinks she will never become something different.  A fat girl is insecure and tries to hide from the world. 

A big girl knows she has limits, but pushes them.  She is always trying new things and is stepping out of her comfort zone.  She knows that she may not be able to do everything she wants to do, or what she sees other people do, but she knows that if she keeps pushing and keeps persisting she will be able to. 

She knows the title of "Big Girl" is only temporary... if she keeps fighting.  If she stops fighting, she knows she'll regress to "Fat Girl".  She knows that she's either moving forward, or she's slipping backwards. 

There is no standing still.

I used to be a fat girl.  I'm not sure when I made the transition to a big girl, or how much longer I'll be a big girl.  All I know is that I have been given much grace and God has proven very faithful in keeping me moving forward.  He has provided more for me than I can ever imagine and one of my favorite gifts he's given me, specifically relating to my health, is the ability to pay it forward and help others do the same.

My story is still being written, and I want to help you write yours.

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

A Hard Truth

I have good news and I have bad news.

I don't usually like to do this, because I like to end things on a positive note, but I'm going to start with the good news.  Don't worry, however, I'll pick things up again before we're done!

Weight update: 299 pounds!  Down 67 since September when I first did the 24 Day Challenge and my health/fitness journey took a huge turn for the better!  I can't say how much all the help, encouragement, and support has carried me through times I wanted to give up.  People on this blog, people on facebook, twitter, and in person have all given me support in one way or another and it's my hope that I can pay it forward and be an inspiration to others to meet their goal!

Also, I completed a 5K a few weeks ago!  On May 19th, I did the Geist 5K in 51:25!  I did not run the entire thing, which I'm fine with, I knew I wasn't at the level just yet, but I ran a little of each kilometer, and finished, which were my goals.  My dad did it with me, and even though I know he could have run the entire 5K fairly easily, he stayed back with me, which helped a lot.  It was a great experience, and I'm looking forward to doing more, and completing a half/sprint triathlon before the year is out.

Now for the bad news.

One of the most common excuses I hear for people not exercising is that they don't have time.  I'm here to say bullcrap.  That's hard for many people to hear, and honestly, that's hard for me to say, because I know I fall into that boat a lot.  More so recently than for a while, and I also know that several people who read this blog have told me that's the reason they don't work out as well.  (If you're one of them, believe, me you're not alone!)  I understand being busy.  Believe me, I do.  And I understand being exhausted after working all day either at a job, or at home with your kids.  It's tiring.  Life is tiring.  But the fact of the matter is this: You either need to make time for health/wellness/fitness now, or make time for illness/health issues later.  I know it's an old adage, but it really is true.  Another common quote I hear is this: If it's important, you will make happen, if it's not you'll make an excuse.

I hate to be the barer of bad news, I really do, but the bottom line is that we make time for what is a priority.  We make time for what's important.

Something else to keep in mind, at the end of the day, the choices you made as far as activity, mind set, nutrition, and so on, are all on you.  It's on you whether you eat good food, or eat crap.  It's on you whether you worked out or not, and how hard you worked out.  It's on you if you decided to fill your brain with lies and dark thoughts as opposed to truth.  That being said, it's impossible to shift your thinking and your lifestyle into something dramatically different without a strong support team helping you.  If the people you're surrounded with don't encourage you to better yourself, surround yourself with different people.

Now to lighten things up a bit!

I wanted to do this as soon as I broke the 300lb mark, but it looks like it will be a little bit longer.  Maybe I'll say this will be the celebration marking 100lbs lost using AdvoCare products!  I want to have a huge cookout (with only yummy, healthy foods) at my house!  There are a few reasons for this, one, I want to party!  Not to sound arrogant, but breaking 300 pounds, and also losing 100 pounds is a big deal and something I want to make a big deal of.  At the same time, I know there are people who need to lose 10, 20, 30, 40lbs... and so on, and some even more than I do, but don't believe they can.  I want to show them they can, and I want to show them how!  Anyone who's local is invited, and if you're not local, maybe it will be an excuse for a road trip!  I hope to see all you're faces at some point!

What's your biggest hurdle when trying to get healthy and what can you do to overcome that hurdle?